conversation got me here; another night alone in the city

thePASSION.
Saturday, May 26, 2007

take a last glance at freedom.
the next six million days.
a long time.

will experience withdrawal symptoms.
no guitars allowed at camp.

thanks zhao.
i love you, babe (:

and we'll love.
and we'll hate.
and we'll die.
all to no avail.
all to no avail.

this is the last time i'll abandon you
and this is the last time i'll forget you
i wish i could.

~~perfect~~ion at 4:19 AM

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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

neglected for way too long.
sheltered far too much.
taken for granted.
slapped straight in the face.
its going away.
its going away.
dont let it go away.

i dont know what to do anymore.
dont take this from me.
its my life.

what a lie this has been.

i'm gonna master it.
no more procrastination.
three years is more than enough.
it could've been so much more.

you have no idea.
how many times that appeared.
in my mind.

if you give me a minute
a man's got a limit
i cant get a life if my heart's not in it.

~~perfect~~ion at 2:40 PM

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Sunday, May 20, 2007

sometimes i hate maturity.
why cant i be irrational, childish.
indulge in impulse-driven, spontaneous behaviour.
no, stop, remember.
you've a team responsibility to shoulder.
then dry the tears, get back in and cheer that shit out.

but its not so bad.
yall're only the best i ever had.
and i want this back.
yall're just the best i ever had.

hook on.
get to her.
then please just.
leave me alone.
i'm no longer as magnanimous.

away on my birthday.
at ab camp.
how coincidental.

cause nothing lasts forever
and we both know hearts can change
and its hard to hold a candle
in the cold november rain.

~~perfect~~ion at 12:43 PM

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

there's nothing i wouldnt do for this team.
because they deserve the best.
we deserve the best.

i dont mind hearing the same thing.
over and over again.
maybe words dont matter.
presence does.
and thats what'll keep me going.

ajbt.
fight.

i'm going home
back to the place where i belong
and where your love has always been
enough for me.

~~perfect~~ion at 2:05 PM

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Friday, May 11, 2007

now its so hard.
you've all grown up.
i dread to think how it'll be like.
when i have my own.

there's a chem test tmr.
and my head rests in the guillotine.

you've consumed all nine lives.
none is all you've got.
it ended a fornight ago.
how much for salvation.

if only the world were just about God, good books and music.

you poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
you know you live to break me, dont deny
sweet sacrifice.

~~perfect~~ion at 2:04 PM

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

Blink, the most convincing non-fiction book.
Millenium Challenge: a US wargame experiment.
Red Team headed by Paul Van Riper.
brief meetings.
limited communication.
no overloading the team with information.
promoted rapid cognition.
Blue Team headed by the US.
boasted of a database of 40,000 entries.
CROP ie. a huge screen showing field of combat.
experts from every US govt sector at their service.
connected to commanders of the four military services.

seems the blue team's got a pretty good advantage.

outcome of the experiment.
red team destroyed 13 blue warships.
and a significant portion of blue's navy.
blue team couldnt foresee nor preempt this and lost.

Van Riper comments.
blue team burdened with too much information.
overloaded blue team's decision makers.
encouraged red team's spontaneity by giving them space.
forced red team to think on their feet.

conclusion.
lots of information doesnt translate to apt decisions.
if you get too caught up in the synthesizing of information, you drown in the data.

to an apparent educater of whom my impression hasnt changed since the day of introduction.
do read Blink and gain yourself some insight.

you're just a sad song
with nothing to say
about a lifelong wait
for a hospital stay.

~~perfect~~ion at 6:44 AM

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Sunday, May 06, 2007

i have decided.
i shall dig out all my kiddy computer games.
install them and play them again (:
after As.

finally clearing my book stack.
but at the expense of lyrical innovation.

and what was it that bestowed on me all your intense gazes.
allowing me to lead them out the door.
was it solitude.
was it dr. james dobson.
or was it that she lost her black ribbon.
it was just supper at tongshui.

i've to sell the latest ipod shuffle 1GB.
takers, anyone?

you could be my unintended choice
to live my life extended
you should be the one i'll always love.

~~perfect~~ion at 3:44 PM

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Wednesday, May 02, 2007

rahh.
i dont care if i'm unglam.
i wanna play table soccer again!
all hail the funktion table shifters.

again we stand here defeated.
shot to life by reality.
better work hard and get somewhere.

if you dont know, i'd suggest.
try to refrain from reading too much into it.

my plug-in baby
in unbroken virgin realities
is tired of living

thank you for being so protective.
its nice to know.
at least to some, i'm not entirely opaque.

glaciers melting in the dead of night
and the superstars
sucked into the supermassive
supermassive blackhole.

~~perfect~~ion at 3:03 PM

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Tuesday, May 01, 2007

things are looking up.
slowly but surely, we'll make it right.

eh dude.
go catch yourself a real rock concert.
expand your horizons, classical boy.
payback time baby.
you got your just desserts.
yes i had a good laugh.
-winks at the knowing-

genteel and mild.
signature affection.
lights, camera, action.
reserved only for the deserving.

satisfunktion.
a breath of fresh air.
my resuscitation.
love you babes.

blue exit.
my NS men.
my pride and joy.
love you dudes.

whats in your head
in your head
zombie zombie zombie.

~~perfect~~ion at 1:08 PM